yeah..4 years my life turn up side down and finally..on 25th September 2011..I'm officially held a B ED TESOL WITH EDUCATION scroll..walked on a stage and held my scroll was d most beautiful moment ever..but at the same time..i;m not satisfied enough..is this the ending of my study time? no..i still want to study..going to class..doing some assignment..and bla33 like i;m used to do before..and at night before my convocation day..I'm filled up the form to continue my study..doing master..i wish ALLAH will help me so i can achieve my dream..
my convo day..my big day..is not as wonderful as others but still i'm thankful to HIM for giving me the chance to celebrate it..nadiah was the representative on my family behalf..none of my family members were there on that day..i'm slightly upset..days before i was totally downright sappy..nobody congratulate me on my big day..no one text me..it's ok..but deep inside still i hope they will do that..and so my boyfie..i wish he'll b d first yet he's da last..
but somebody does..come to me with a bear..even it is d small one but the value is important not the size..he come when i'm alone under the shady three with my gloomy heart..i never know him before even always heard about him from my friends..the day i bought my shoes..he was there..nice and good looking guy..my friends tried to match us..wow..hahahaha..it's great la sgt..i have boyfie oledi..i said nothing but they know i have and love somebody else..
he showed positive sign..tried to approach me each time we met up..and the threshold..gave me a present..and asked to toke a picture together..i admit he bright up my days when i was there in penang..i hope for somebody else actually..but the one i waiting for didn't show up..
a day before my convocation, my boyfie was there with his family..i'm happy he was around as we didn't see each other for almost 5 months..we're hundred miles apart and that day..we're at the same place..can u imagine how happy i am..when my love one was so close to me..but he seems not really want to see me..my heart said that..if i didn't accidentally saw him at convex..we might not meet each other..i already in nadiah's room when he said he was at the mosque..i'm lying on nadiah's bed that time..headache! my friends said no..don't go..if he really want to see me..he'll find me..but i miss him..i go..i went to see him..walk alone heading to mosque..it's far from nadiah's room actually but still i went there..we meet for 5 minutes only..huhuhu..too short. i saw he did not really comfortable so i'm leaving..feelingless..stop under a shady tree..dunno what to do..what to feel..it's rainy and great..i had a fever..on my convocation's day..i'm not feeling well..
somehow i dunno why but i feel we're getting far from each other..are we didn't meant to be? what ever..i accept everything..i just want to laugh again like before..the time i dun have to think about another person..the time i dun have to miss somebody..let the time determine everything..
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