is it just a temporary crush?

sweetness is gone? is it? please don't be true..i'm afraid what they told me earlier might be true..it was a temporary crush..u'd only like me when i was there..as time pass by..ur memories of me will degrading day by day..we're happy al dis time.don't we..yes it's true, we sometimes had an argument but we can overcome it..right abg? so please tell me it wasn't true..they talk nonsense..they know nothing..


but the truth is syg..i can feel it..i can feel that u'r trying to create a distance between us..u said u'r busy..ok..i'm not bother..u said u were sick..u can't text me..even though it sounds silly but still i take ur words to believe..and now..when u'r not damn busy..u'r getting better..still it's hard to hear from u..i wait for u..keep waiting..from morning to night..but useless..u come to me as different person..not my old sayang..sometimes i dun know u anymore..i said to me..u have works to do..a lot to think.. much to study..while me..i have nothing to do..it's slightly hurt me..u dunno syg..even though i have works to do or in d middle of doing something..i'l leave it behind..so i can reply u..won't let u waiting..i never stop texting u 1st..i never not replied back..i never try to do something that can hurt u..can effect our relationship..but u..always syg..


i've tried my best syg and i'm tired..maybe if thing won't getting better..i'm afraid i can't hold it anymore..i'l have to let it go..i love u..i really do..i dearly missing u every single day..i pray for our happiness every single day..but if were not meant to b..i'l try to accept it..how hard it is..i'l try..

how am i gonna love u?

ow am i? how will i show my love for u? what about u? i show my love to u when i accept you just the way u are..even i'm totally older than u..wow..older than ur kakak..oh my GOD..but still i respect u as an individual..i never thought of u as a kid..no..u to me is somebody..somebody i love and i wouldn't hesitate to sacrifice for..can't u see how much i love u? only if u can see it..i spend my money just to reload my cell..so i can always in touch with u..we're far from each other but our fingers will bring us together..hekhek..i swore i'd never became so addicted to topap each time my credit is running out before..sometimes i just let it for a weeks..but it was before i met u honey..i called u when u missed me..and when i'm missing u..xpernah ku nalipon lelaki oii..but tis time i caled him every single week..ur voice make me calm..betullah..cinta ni ntah pape..sewel suda aku.. i always be there for u..everytime u need me..anytime..morning..early in the morning..afternoon..evening..night..midnight..i'm all urs..